IT'S ALL ABOUT HIM...

I want to be honest with someone who always stay in my heart...

I want to him know that i feel so bad when i know he try to care with someone else..

from the beginning i know he never see me more than friend..but if he could see and he try to be aware i could show him what i feel...

i know what i feel is wrong..but i wish he knows that i felt this for long time... and may be getting bigger than before because he always stay beside me.. he always understand me.. he always come whenever i need him..

the reason i fall in love with him i never realized that...
i just feel so comfortable with him...
he hurt me with keep being someone else boyfriend,,,
i have cried twice because of him..
even when i have boyfriend i keep can't to forget him..
i ever to leave from his live...he feel i go away.. and he try to make me stay..
and yeah

... how stupid I'm because i came back to him again..
he ever leave me too but the end he back again...
i don't know what should i do now... just follow the way that he made... with all the reason that i never know what it is...
i try to keep like this,,, to keep hurting and keep to look at him.. only him..until i could forget how important him for me...
i know if he know what i feel i could to lose him..but the truth that are my risk to fall in love with him...even if he have the same feel with me..we never being together if he want not to be honest...

sometimes i wish i had amnesia and then i could forget him with easy way..never with hurting way...